My last drink got me thinking

I usually drink when am sad or happy, by myself or with friends. The drink usually puts me in that place, a good place depending on how much I drink. Most of the times I drink depending on the surroundings, I tend to drink little when am by myself and a lot more when I am with friends I truly trust. If am in a bad place all of a sudden I light up, something about my last drink got me thinking. What made me trust my friends that they will look out for me if by the end of the night we were all the same, drunk? 

About a week ago I went to my friend’s big 21st birthday. She made it huge therefore we all dressed up and were ready for the night. We all agreed to have fun and drink sensibly in order not to spoil the night. We argued for this time to look out for each other but it just did not go to plan. We started our night by having lighter drinks; I usually have spirits and I stick to the same drink all night. I drink vodka with coke or red bull but this time I mixed different drinks and by the end the night I had lost count of how many drinks I had and what I had mixed with what. We all got in the birthday spirit and by the end of the night all promises were broken; we all got but two of my friends got so drunk.

They started arguing and picking fights in the club and it got so bad that the club guards could not take it any more after several warnings hence throwing us out. When we got outside it got even ugly as we all turned to these two and then turned against each other and started fighting.  Hurtfull and shocking things were said to each other. Things that neither of us would ever say if we were not drunk, we got divided to those who agreed to what was being argued to those who disagreed and some were caught in between. We all had to find our way home as none of those driving was fit to drive, this saw us going separate ways without resolving what was said that night, we usually get in the car and talk about it but this time there was something different say strange about this drunkard situation. The next morning half of my friends said they were so drunk the previous night to remember the night before. For this night I was drunk but not too drunk not to remember what was said that night, we have not talked to some of the other friends which is strange as we used to talk regularly. Of course we had fun that day but did we take it too far this time it cost us our friendship?

We might all talk again but may not be the same, we think to blame it on the alcohol intake we took that day but then again we have to take responsibility for what happened. I say my last drink brought a crack to our friendship but I will learn through it not to drink a lot next time.